Journal Entry: Tue Sep 23, 2014, 2:14 PM
Life update: College is happening so very hard right now, and I haven't had a lot of time to do much of anything.
Actually, that's a lie. I have time. I just don't have any motivation whatsoever right now. I said I would post one piece of art every month, and at this point, it's probably going to be a very old sketch that I never bothered to color because it was too much work. Just so that I can say I posted something. I haven't written anything since God knows when, and even though I wanted to get more involved in the roleplay community, I've been packing my bags and ditching groups left and right. I ditch some of them before even making a single roleplay post because I just don't have the energy.
We're supposed to do blogs for one of my classes and leave comments on other's blogs, and I commented on some people's things and they replied, but I deemed the replies unworthy of my time because I don't feel like putting in the effort it requires to write back.
And the worst thing out of anything is that college is cutting into my online social life. My real social life is thriving more than ever, but there are people online who I deeply and genuinely care about, and they're not having a good time right now, and I just really want to be there for them, but I can't. By the time I get around to checking deviantART, something else has happened, and I just-- I don't know.
I'm just sad that I don't come around as much as I used to.
I really don't want to go to my 6-9 class tonight. Three hours is a long time to sit and draw Star Wars characters, especially since I don't even like Star Wars... I would skip, but it would be kind of devastating to miss a three-hour class... I'd fall so far behind. I blame that class for a majority of my slump. The assignments really suck, and it's hard to get passionate about assignments that suck, and by the time the class is over, I'm exhausted and don't want to look at my sketchbook or Photoshop or SAI or anything anymore!! And this is every week. Bluh. *dies*
Anyway, this isn't a journal to make anyone feel sorry for me or anything. I just wanted to say that I'm not around as much as I used to be due to a lack of motivation and a sensation of being really overwhelmed and that if you're feeling alone or anything like that, I still do love you, and I hope things get better for you sometime!
Please take care of yourself, okay?
Listening to: "Keep Holding On" - Avril Lavigne